my.double.n

going, going, gone

2006-10-11T20:04:00.000-07:00

i'm going stealth!
ping me for my new address
:D

all in all

2006-10-02T20:28:00.000-07:00

so its been 10 days of fasting..
and all i can say is that, puasa kat msia memang panas
i'm not sure is malaysia memang panas but since is puasa so it feels much hotter, or its just that masa bulan puasa dier memang lebih panas..
but the conclusion is going out of your house (or any place not air conditioned for that matter) is total suicide..

even going to pasar ramadhan can be such a torture..with the heat and the people
and the heat from the ayam percik di bakar, and all the food being goreng..so dier meningkat lah..and then you see all these kind of drinks with ice to the brim..memang rasa cam nak mandi jer dgn air2 tuh sumer..hehehe..

but fasting in malaysia is great lah kan..the food, need i say more? you can have everything under the sun..once i read this blog talking about ikan keli salai masak lemak cili api..i was wondering wah sungguh hebat dan spesifik masakan itu, tak pernah ku jumpa, and guess what? i found it the very next day..and i bought it..haha..there is all sorts of drinks with all sorts of color..even nasi kerabu, there are three types of them..briyani, murtabak, roti john..popia, kuih talam, roti jala..seriously..sgt byk

so my friends..yg berada di us..i'm so sorry you cannot enjoy this fiesta that comes once a year..tapi sabar yer adik2! your time will come..hehe

hari first

2006-09-24T05:34:00.000-07:00

hari ni hari first puasa..
and you know what i did masa buka puasa tadi..i cried! haha..sgt terharu tgk makanan yg byk and teringat kat dayah tukimin and some other people yg bukak puasa dgn mkn yg tak baper best like me (and also teringat la zaman2 bukak puasa dgn rummet dulu..) hehe saya sgt suker nangis..sebab tu org panggil cembeng dulu masa kat sekolah..cembeng ker cengeng ker aper2 lah

so it was cool lah, after four years of tak bukak puasa kat rumah..i cooked roti jala and popia and bubur/pengat durian..tapi pengat durian tu macam tgh hyper so hilang perspective sikit buat so terbyk..cause the last time i did it cam masak utk lebih dari sepuluh org and kiteorg ader like lima org jer..so cam porpotion lari sikit..tapi sedap alhamdulillah..(well, at least to daddy..hehe)

also made popia and agar2 and lots of other stuff! i'm sure sarah macam seronok jer bukak puasa dgn friends dgn bekal yg byk itu..

so raya this year i'm going back to swak..kind of excited jugak sebab as usual kena naik kapal terbang balik..hehe(macam budak kecik..and macam tak puas2 jer naik kapal terbang masa belajo dulu..isk2) i'm really excited sebab salu raya kat swak lagi meriah and salu ader weird stuff(but sedap) things to eat and do..haha..(i hope i still get duit raya this year..hoho tak malu)..and anyway i promised my mom i cooked lontong for raya this year(ok tader kena mengena dgn swak info ringkas nih..hehe)

ok well, i just want to wish all of you selamat berpuasa and i'm really sorry for kawan2 saya di seberang sana yg tak dpt menikmati juadah berbuka puasa yg hebat seperti saya disini..i eat for you guys eh! hehe ;) muaxxxx

love is a battlefield

2006-09-05T21:23:00.000-07:00

i just came back from the lion city..
where is that? singapore..hehe..
it was actually just intended to be a full blown vacation for me (while my sister studies for her exam <-- the real purpose of the trip), with me waking up only in time for lunch and tiring out my feet along orchard road(shopping you see? hehe) but it didnt turn out that way

on thursday i got an email for interview offer in singapore on friday..i only managed to reschedule my interview to saturday, so instead of going to singapore on saturday night as planned we had to go on friday night to reach singapore on saturday morning (adakah ini memeningkan?) we rode on the night train, equipped with beds, tv and a shower all to our twoselves(me and my sister)which was really cool, if you have time to spare and no money i would fully recommend taking the senandung mlm express to singapore, you get on the train, you sleep and you wake up, take a shower and walla you're there! tak rasa langsung :)

so the interview went well, but somehow i guess they didnt perceived it as well...because there were supposed to call me on monday for a callback..but the phones have been silent till now, no emails or nothing..i cannot say i was not dissapointed, i was truly dissapointed but then oh well life goes on..so i went on to orchard road and splurged..on make up..haha..

singapore is pretty, and very high tech..i guess malaysia can really learn a thing or two about it..but then again its really small so i guess its easier to maintain..hehe..owh well..

and did you know? singapore independence day is the same as my birthday :D

toodles!

and yeah, pandai me luper bawak camera so no pics!

what have i been up to?

2006-08-24T22:03:00.000-07:00

haaalooooooo! (loo-loo-loo-looo <-- trying to create the echo effect..hehe)
so what have i been up to..hmmm lets see

so on the 9th of august i turned 21..oops sorry 22..hehe..i'm still the same immature me, still that tall, lanky, not so thin girl..who looks like the younger sibiling when going out with sarah(for those not familiar with her, she is only 19)..i havent really gotten any bday present from my family members(which is actually to me the only purpose of celebrating a birthday..yes, i am not ashamed to admit that i lurrrrve getting birthday presents..ngeee :)) but i got a porcupine and also a cat for my birthday..so all is good, and also five little miniature handbags..;)

well, other than that, nothing much..fie got engaged, gg too, yassir got married, and i heard herman is getting married too..also epul got married..saper lagi haa? oh yeah, siti too..yup i'm talking about that siti..i hope i didnt miss anybody out..

i guess that's all for now..hehe...later~!

too much

2006-07-31T18:23:00.000-07:00

i'm too much like my mom..it scares me..
the temper, the emotional side of her, the taste in clothes
too much of something is rarely a good thing
and you see opposites attract and likes repel..
and you dont want to repel you own mom do you?

well, all that aside
i'm still in this living-life-to-the-fullest mode(or more like sleeping-and-eating mode)
still no cash inflow, but out flow is as steady as the nile river
hehe

i guess thats all for now
nothing much to say..
just that..next week is my birthday! ;)
toodles~!

i will!

2006-07-18T09:20:00.000-07:00

yes! i will write an entry today..although i cannot promise an entirely beneficial entry..but so be it

so anyway, i did try writing a few times, but then the words are just stuck some where there in between my fingers and the keyboard..hahaa..cliche2..i know..

in the past few weeks that i have gone AWOL, i managed to acquire brand new glasses..now i'm officially four eyes again, where my contacts are kept for more formal occasion where i feel the need to be prettier than usual..hehee..(please dont laugh..) i also acquired a new cousin that goes by the name irfan niyaz..i would lovingly oblige your request to put his pictures, but the father has yet to email me the pictures, but since having a new baby (plus two toddlers) can be quite time and energy consuming i guess we can wait a few more days eh? hehe

my interview you ask? yes, to the few privelleged, i have managed to share the fact that i had an interview last friday..i could not say it has gone exceptionally well, but i guess i good myself a pat on the back for my first interview..hehe..but precentage of me working there? quite low, i just cannot see myself selling things and recruting people and strategizing at the same time(which is what the job entails)! i'm just an engineer..all i do is tear things apart..hehe :D

anyway..i guess that is all i have to report for the time being..i'm still alive and kicking(alhamdulillah) if that is what you're wondering..my father say i'm not officially a penganggur because i'm only unemployed for a month or so, so i guess that's ok..hehe..

till later, toodles!

and ashwaq..please remove that picture! hehe..

en-GENIUS?

2006-06-24T08:16:00.000-07:00

the downside of not wanting to be a doctor, is that there is no work waiting for you the minute you graduate..unlike doctors and dentist..tak sempat nak grad pun diorang dah keje..and this tiny little fact is being reminded to me almost daily by dear ol' mum, and has been haunting me and my sleep since the day i flew back here for good

looking for work is not easy..especially when your degree is something of the exotic (nak sebut pun boleh terbelit lidah) like biomedical engineering..biomedical is still a relatively new field in malaysia, tambah lagi engineering kat blakang tuh..hehee

but i guess not everything can not be handed to me on a silver spoon, which so far, alhamdulillah, has what my life has actually been..i guess its time to 'singsing lengan' (kot la kater org) and get in the game, and get in the mud and get dirty and all those saying lah..hehee

do pray for me!

new?

2006-06-05T10:51:00.000-07:00

alhamdulillah i'm home

for the many the messaged me during my last days in nashville, my thousand apologies that i could not reply...there were too much to do, and now since i have a lot of idle time on my hands, i'll try to reply your messages

home is sweet, i'm still living out of a suitcase(literally) since being away for the past nine years doesnt really entitle you to a cupboard space..it has been awkward..new ways, new things, new sign language from my baby brother..but it's nice to be home

i know i haven't write for so long..the truth is, a lot has happen..things that i wouldn't know where to begin with to write it all down, things that i dont have the words to write them with, things that are just sitting silently, idly in my head..thoughts, wishes, dreams, prayers..all which are just to intricate and complicated to be shared

malaysia is hot, well, that is an understatement seeing how the states is just as hot..i guess malaysia is sticky..yup that is more a better word..hehe..but on the bright side, i can eat everything under the sun, no more being cautious of beef and chicken..just yesterday i ate the most scrumptios assam laksa at dear old penang village in ttdi :D

i'm thinking maybe of a new start although i dont really know what that will bring..more murky waters and cloudy roads are ahead of me..i'm stil unsure of the next step, but insyaAllah with His guidance i will be able to make the best decision

that's all for now..i cant promise a future entry..but keep on the watch out!

i got

2006-04-30T21:25:00.000-07:00

today i got bangs..seri kasi :)

people may not notice, but i actually do have feelings

lack

2006-04-29T03:33:00.000-07:00

gah..the muse is gone indeed
i find myself several times staring at this page...blank going on in my mind
or something half written, and then go click on the 'x' button
maybe its because i just spend the last month writing technical papers
and yup, the month is up and my final is done
so if all goes well, i'll be a vandy alum, insyaAllah
do make du'a for me! :)

i think its the lack of things happening around me
so far all i've done is paid my bills, and got my overdue graduation dress (make du'a again that it reaches in time and does not make me look like a clown! hehe)
no packing or things of that sort, when i know i should be doing that..
maybe i'm in denial? maybe, maybe

i know why the denial
its because i have no clue in the world of what to do next
jadi kamu cepat help me figure this out

today i'm going book hunting!

going going gone

2006-04-02T21:13:00.000-07:00

so the two year old camera is going already..i hope it wont be going going gone during graduation..

it was raining cats dogs fish kangaroo and panda this afternoon and i was trying to get to the car, so my shoes were soaked all the way to my knees..you know what was amazing? i found out my socks were kalis air..dont believe it? you better do..

i forgot that i'm having a three day weekend this week..such wonderful surprise for my sunday..i still have 13 more pages to go..so yippee me

i think that's all for this weekend..

oh yer, i got super big sunglasses..so if you think it was a bad idea, you have daia to blame..hehe

pretty

2006-03-30T23:13:00.000-08:00

so i thought that this is a pretty little thing..i've always love bracelets..and this little thing is just simply charming..should i get it for myself? (please say no..i need to save up for my 'baju grad'..heheee)

i have 16 pages to go for my biotherapeutic paper..its kind of cool, looking at those heart valves and balloons and learning terms like valvuloplasty and valvotomy..seriously..give it a try, trying saying it once..you'll see what i mean(i think..hehe)

so it turns out that the korean series that i've been watching patiently has a happy ending, just like i wanted it to so now i can sleep soundly at night, hehe..i dont like stories with sad endings..

i paid for my regalia and also emailed jpa for my ticket back to malaysia, i guess its the real deal now, with only a little bit more than one month left, that i'm graduating..sometimes i just cant wait, but other times i'm just plain scared and i guess thats normal...

i'll be sleeping now..but you know you can always get that bracelet for me anytime! just contact me for details....just something for you to ponder on! hehee

the story of my life

2006-03-29T02:30:00.000-08:00

this is a picture (and a bad one at that..purposely) of me and my friends during my last year in jenan..as you can see, everyone else is busy studying while me and my friends are busy taking this picture(i'll let you figure out which one is me)

my f5 class consists of 28 students(if i'm not mistaken) and 8 of use were girls, tuck away at the far back corner of the class..which is not really a bad thing because everytime my teacher would set down her chalk and ask us to start doing our hw, my head would also set down on the table and doze of to dream land (sgt teruk! yes! no doubt! i blame the nasi kawah..hehe)

other than that..you can see that our board back there is as bare as a baby's bottom only nicely decorated by yours truly since we are in the first class (my school still does ranking of that sort A,B,C,D,E and F) apparently we do not need that extra information you would fill at the back board and therefore it was left empty until the end of the year

next, if you noticed, most of us were clad in the ever so coveted blue uniform dooming us forever as the hated prefects..well, in my school we were not called prefects but rather bpp or badan perwakilan pelajar(but i'm sure still much hated)..years ago, the administration decided that it would such a hassle and power craze if we have both the prefects and bpp, and so just decided to have bpps instead..however, there was one very obvious deficient in this system..over time, the bpps were forced to take on the prefects role as well

oh the reminiscing can go on and on..and here i am four years later, ready to graduate from a whole different institution altogether..this picture was just to show you how studious other people were compered to me..and it's never changed since!

i realize

2006-03-26T17:00:00.000-08:00

this week i realized a few things
1. why i dont like going to the rec..after-math major migraine and no one to play pingpong with me
2. i like grapes..a lot! bought grape, grape jam and grape juice without even noticing
3.chocolate and grape juice is considered a meal in crazy-mix-up-mynn's-world
4. there is no one in the world i'd rather walk home with

the replacements

2006-03-25T20:15:00.000-08:00

they replace your sisters when you're a million miles away and a thousand seas apart
they replace the pillow you so often cry on and wipe away your tears
they replace the tv and entertain you when you're bored with those reruns of friends
they replace a counselor when you're troubled and give advice for free
they replace a heater and hold you close when you walk in the cold wind
they are just there when you need them asking nothing in return
and nothing could replace them in return

and this one is a diamond in the rough, a one in a million, and i am the luckiest girl to have found her

how easy?

2006-03-22T19:26:00.000-08:00

how easy it is to fall?
to slip, to trip to tumble?

how easy it is to fall?
and not hurt yourself?

how easy it is to fall?
and stand up tall again?

gubra

2006-03-19T04:08:00.000-08:00

so forgive my malay but i have no idea what gubra means..gabra yes, gambar yes and even ghuraba..but gubra doesn't seem to have made way to my almost non-existence vocabulary..

well anyway..gubra is the title of yasmin ahmad's latest(i think la latest) film..and you can watch the preview here
no offense to her, not that she reads my blog...so well maybe no offnese to her fans..but i really dont understand the preview..and i thought a preview was to show a glimpse of the storyline and give some sort of temptation that will entice the audience to go see the movie but this preview is like just shots and scenes randomly taken out of the movie..maybe the preview is just going solely on the fact that it was made by yasmin ahmad?

i have nothing against yasmin ahmad..but although many thought sepet was brilliant i was not among the many..i think that the movie somehow potrayed a distorted notion of malaysians, and some scene just proved unnecessary..for one..how many malaysian actually say "where is my brush?" as opposed to "where is my comb?" and that kejar mengejar di rumah dlm kain batik..what was that supposed to mean? and the thing that always2 gets on my bad side is the fact that the story has no real ending..so what happened in the end? who died? who was on the phone? too many mystery..and i spent 2 hours to get to nothing?

ok..so that was a lot of criticism..but i just thought the story got a lot more credit than it deserved..but it was different from the typical malay story..from the setting to the storyline to the characters..it was not your typical happy ending, bad guy vs good guy type of story..so i guess in the end it was kind of refreshing

saying all that, i am looking forward to this gubra..one, to find out what gubra means..and two, well, everyone will be talking about it..so i have to see it so that it can be some sort of conversation starter..and three, well maybe to critic somemore? aha..such bias judgement..no no..

so yeah, there goes..and i thought i lost my touch in writing..i just needed a good topic..so people..what else do you want me to write about?

i do, i really do

2006-03-12T19:36:00.000-08:00

its been too long
since last i see you smile
since last i see you laugh
since last i talked to you
dont you think?

lets bake

2006-03-09T11:40:00.000-08:00

my biggest cita2 in the whole wide world right now is not to be an engineer..but to make this cake!! hohoho..it is a 32 layer crepe cake with hazelnut filling and candied hazelnut on top of it..just saying it out loud in my mind is making me very 'terliur'(not a sight i would want you to see..) but just to show you how very yummylicious it looks and sound..i've wanting to try new chocolate cake recipes for quite some time and i think i just found the perfect one! woohoo..so now, if someone can buy me all the ingredients to make it..i will gladly make it for you and we can share it..just the two of us! hehe..toodles~!

on mute

2006-03-08T06:57:00.000-08:00

so for three days i've been wondering why i cannot get up on time..or when the alarm goes off..have i been so immune to the alarm sound that i just turn it off in my sleep? it was weird..usually if i'm just down for a nap, i would wake up when the alarm goes off..but for the past three days, its like my alarm was non existence..

then only today i realized..nothing was wrong with me..(well in sense of the alarm, in other sense? well, i wouldnt delve into that...)i have turned down the volume so much, that the alarm was on mute..(my alarm is an alarm+radio sort of thing)..so that was why the alarm doesnt go off..well actually it does go off, i just cant hear it! hehe..luckily this happened during chuti sekolah..kalau masa sekolah agak naya la kan..
so yeah! good for me solving this mystery..

i have to go study now..sebab saya bercita2 besar nak sambung pelajaran di sini..hehe..doakan saya yer kawan2!

i made a sentence to help me remember 2 weird words..and every morning i recite it to myself..nak dgr?
an inchoate thing is innocuous
it kind of mean that an incomplete thing is harmless..hehe..sgt tak make sense..but it works for me! hehe
toodle dee duu~!

alone

2006-03-06T20:08:00.000-08:00

so zaty went skiing..and i'm left alone to maintain the fort...while i love not not having to clean up after my mess(of studying..) there are certain things that does not agree with me living alone

1. the sounds..the creaking and the squeaking and the croaking of everything non-living in this house! one morning i was up for subuh, and i heard a really loud squeak from the living room! imagine the feeling, i thought somebody had break into the house!and you know what it was? it was the tv! haha.. then the other night when i was just getting into bed, i heard a flushlike sound from the toilet..you know, this sounds are not that scary when there is someone else in the house, but when you're alone, your mind just go paranoid..haha

2. the bottles..it seems that i cannot open a single bottle..usually if i cannot open something, i just ask zaty to do it for me..but now since she's not here..hmmm...its kind of depressing..

so yeah, other than that i can sprawl in the living room while i figure out whether 6^10 is bigger than 5^11 or not..hehe

garang

2006-03-02T22:26:00.000-08:00

so seriously..do i have a garang-muka-cam-nak-makan-org-face?
ok i admit i dont really have the most angelic sweetest face in the world..but muker cam nak mkn org? that cannot be true...or can it?

so yes, i am kind of serious..but most of the time i'm just this really clumsy girl who has a lot on my mind..so usually most of the time if you see me with a serious look plastered on my face it just i'm thinking and analyzing something(usually overthinking and overanalyzing sutff) but seriously, i dont eat people whole!(i just tear them up limb by limb and then only eat them..hehee..jk)

so yup, it came quite as a shock to me that people tell me i have this garang face..albeit being a bit on the garang side i think i am approchable..and friendly and funny too~! haha..

and today i heard a rumor about me..that is so totally untrue..if someone tells you something jokingly please dont go around peddling it as a hard fact story..i mean like..come onelaaaaaaa...

think

2006-02-26T14:37:00.000-08:00

this week is accident week for me..satu accident melecur and satu lagi tersepit..hehe..tanak citer panjang2 sebab nanti korang mesti tanya..'laa caner boleh jadi camtuh'..ehehe..which will prove my clumsiness...pastu smalam buat lasagna bawak pegi masjid..skali masa tgh smayang ader budak pijak pulak..penyek lasagna tuh(so kalau korang yg pegi mkn tu wondering naper penyek, yer itulah sebabnyer..but dont worry sebab lasagna tu ditutup dgn saran wrap and my jacket yg menjadi mangsa terpijak itu)..hehe..dugaan betul minggu ni...biler pk2 mungkin jadik camtu sebab ntah2 lately ni byk buat dosa..tapi taper..kalau Allah punish kat dunia ni sakit dier kejap jer insyaAllah, tapi kalau balas kat akhirat, sampai biler2 sakit dier..:)

next~!

2006-02-18T18:54:00.000-08:00

so remember my friend got married the other day? and i ask who's next?
well, i guess i got its answer..just shy of 3 weeks that my friend got married..two of my friends got engaged..to each other! hoho..

i dont really know the couple..as a matter of fact i dont even know that they were a couple(ni mesti lepas skolah nih..hehe..) the girl is this really sweet, soft spoken girl...and the guy, well i dont know the guy..but he sure knows how to takbir raya! hehe..once i had the chance to work with him for the form 1 orientation, and he had to do the takbir raya for their performance..sumer org nangis!(except me that is..although something did struck in my then cold, cold heart..hehee)..other than that i dont really know him, cause we were never in the same class

so anyhoo..congratulations to them both! and i hope they will last till the ~~jinjing~~ jinjang pelamin and anak cucu and all that!

hehe..

where?

2006-02-15T20:31:00.000-08:00

so i missed my dad terribly today..its been too long since i heard from him..
so i tried to call him..and nobody answered the phone..
then i tried to call home..and my maid told me 'mummy keluar'..and i asked..'keluar maner?'
'keluar negeri'

hmm..caner saya boleh tatau ni? keluar negeri pegi maner eh? dtg sini ker? hehe..
i miss you daddy..call soon..:))

agak lama

2006-02-10T19:57:00.000-08:00

agak lama kan? tidak tulis di sini?
lebih dari seminggu rasanya
sibuk? tidak juga..mungkin sudah tidak tahu mahu tulis apa
katanya mahu turun salji malam ini..tiap sepuluh minit tgk luar..mahu tgk salji turun..
pernah tgk? cantik sekali
hujan di luar, meja sejuk..sejuk sekali..lagi2 tepi aircon..apa tak sejuknya kan?
tgk counter di bawah..sudah lebih 10 ribu orang datang..tiap2 hari org datang..sebab nombor itu pasti naik..tapi semua org juga sepi..
sudah tiga tahun tulis di blog ini..3 tahun lalu mula menulis..tidak sangka lama sebegini..masih menulis lagi..sebenarnya sudah tidak tahu mahu tulis apa..
mungkin ada..tapi terbeku dalam kepala..tidak sampai ke tangan mahu tap-tap menaip
oklah..masih tidak tahu mahu tulis apa..jadi sampai sini sahajalah..
kawan2 yg lain..jgn sepi2 sahaja yer datang sini! ;)

belum berjaya

2006-02-01T22:34:00.000-08:00

our first attempt at our senior design project was far from successful(but not yet an utter failure..), i need to figure out what i'm going to write for my 20 page report on biotherapeutic by tomorrow(only the title is due, but still..), also figure out why a 6 inch thick slab of concrete only offer 7mm of protection from x-ray and turn several arabic words into its plural form..and i only had grilled cheese for dinner(tapi sedap!sedap ader tomato..hehe)

need i explain more why i want to graduate?

home stretch

2006-01-29T22:09:00.000-08:00

i found out today that there are 100 days left till graduation..or till the semester ends..or till summer hols..

all which means that there are 100 days left of me being a student here..as an undergraduate that is..

have you ever felt that the closer you are to something, the further you feel it is? like..if you're in a marathon, the last 10 meters seem like just pure torture to finish, or like if you're dying to meet someone, the trip there just seems to go on forever?

yup..that is exactly how i feel..i know i'm going to regret what i'm saying right now, but i really cant wait to graduate, its not that i'm ready to go working and join the rat race...but i guess four years is just long enough..and i'm ready to lay back and rest for a while..look at the world from a different perspective other than assignments and tests and homeworks..

so yeah..let the countdown begin! hehe

i forever do

2006-01-28T20:42:00.000-08:00

tada~! so who's next? hehe

clown me up

2006-01-26T10:06:00.000-08:00

i looked like a clown today going to class..
i was late..so nothing was the same color..
i had red hijab, blue shoes, purple gloves and an off-green coat..
i hate it when i'm not color coordinated..
but oh well, classes are over..hehe

my dear friend is getting married this saturday..now that deserves an entry of it own..hehe ;)

things that happened/i found out/figured out during the weekend

2006-01-22T00:02:00.000-08:00

1. my laptop fell smack down on its screen after four long years with me..nothng happened to me thought
2. miss congenialty 2 is no where as good as the first one..kind of boring also
3. i am going to miss dearly my juniors here in vandy when i graduate
4. rediscovered snells law
5. i eat a lot!
6. the need to excercise
7. one of my senior from high school on a complete stranger fotopages..goes to show how small the world is
8. i have a lot of hw
9. i am completely bewildered by electronic circuitry(and i want to be an engineer?!)
10. how i like to be very detailed and overanalyze things(i've known this fact actually before the weekend..but i have nothing else to write..hehe)

hope you had a happy weekend! i'm going to see a free electron laser on monday! ahah..and i dont have any classes on monday and wednesday!! ;)

juling

2006-01-20T10:56:00.000-08:00

i wore my contacts terbalik yesterday..the right one went into the left eye..and the left one went into the right eye..it should be ok you say..but you see, my right eye is way 'buta' then my left eye..so when my left contacts went into my right eye..dier tak cukup power la kan? get it? and to make things worst, i found out on the way to class, and i had a whole day of classes..and so i cannot change them back to their correct eyes..hehe..so i was walking all day long, with my terbalik contacts..and i dont know why..i feel so juling yesterday..hehe

lousy

2006-01-16T22:42:00.000-08:00

i feel so lousy right now, i dont even want to put a picture up..the reason? it was my mom's birthday yesterday..and i didnt get to call her..even worse, my dad said she was waiting for my call..i feel like, well..so lousy

i have this weird cut on my thumb..why i say weird? because it's vertical, and i have no recollection whatsoever as how did i got it..and well, its just weird..i think i have to be more careful..maybe that should be my new year resolution

oh well..i think i should get some shut eye..i have a 930 class tomorrow all the way to 230 in the afternoon..and then i have to do some research on voice synthesizers and all that stuff for my senior design project..which means no nap time for me..hehe

oh dear, this is such a lousy entry..if you made it this far, reward yourself with a kissable..;)

you and me

2006-01-15T09:39:00.000-08:00

sunday is here..the weekend do fly by dont they? you spent most of the week waiting for the weekend, and once its here..it just whizzes right by you..i guess that what makes them so anticipated..the fact that its duration is so ephemeral..gone in a blink of an eye..hehe

anyway..we had our eid adha celebration..not much of a celebration except everybody pitch in and cook and then lets stuff oursleves tilll we cannot move much..hehe

me and lin were in charge of cooking daging masak merah..a feat that i have not accomplished before..but we managed to get through it..the funny thiing is..you have two different cooks, cooking entirely seperately...and tada~! you get two different version of daging masak merah..hehe..i thought that was funny..the one that is more berkuah is my version of dagiing masak merah..i'm more into 'dig in till you get the to the surprise' kind of gal..while the drier version is lin's masterpiece..both scrumptiously delicious..

we actually made our perencah together..peeling the onions, and cutting up the dried chilis..all those together into one blender..but the fact that the two dishes turn out entirely different is very interesting indeed..i'm sure if five people were in charge of cooking the dish, they would be five version of it...it goes to show that how different people think..Allah has created each and everyone of us differently and uniquely..and there are like berbillion2 people on the earth..Subhanallah!

so well..i have to go and prep myself for school..i have to find out what lasik is..and i still have some hw to do..so toodle de doo~!

quote me

2006-01-12T22:30:00.000-08:00

this is my favourite picture of my brother taken almost two years ago..i thought i start my blog posts with a picture to make my blog somewhat interesting to you people out there..hehe

my biotherapeutic professor imposed quite an interesting subject...us biomedical engineers are not allowed to cut people open or do any invasive surgery on anyone..but somehow, doctors sometimes turn to us(well more to him than me...hehe) to come up with new ways of treatment that produces higher survival rates..irony huh?

anyway..i think that was what he was saying, the purpose of the class is..the class is to learn better ways of drug delivary and disease treatments and things like that..cool huh? :) i think so too..hehe

my other bme class today is medical imaging...looking at mri images and ct scans definitely brought back fond memories of working at the radiology department last summer..i had some fun times with lin at the back of class trying to differ between an mri image and a ct scan..hehe..and the teacher has somekind of a british accent..so that is definitely a plus..hehe..

Scientist discover the world that is, engineer created the world that never was -Theodore Von Kamen

the first of last

2006-01-11T20:46:00.000-08:00

today is the first day of my last semester of my undergraduate career..whoa, long sentence..the sun was out, it was not too cold, nor too hot, a little breeze blowing your way..and with only one class today..it was the perfect day to begin the semester

i was 5 minutes late for my first class..i was not to blame, i had to look up where the class is and it took forever for my laptop to start up..and also, i had no idea where my class is..haha (almost 4 years here and i still have no idea where anything is..) anyway..i was pleasently greated by a short test, the professor wanted to know how much we know about the subject..and what the subject is? biomedical optics..so basically i dont know anything..hehe

i think i'm taking interesting subjects this semester..biomedical optics, medical imaging, biotherapeutic..the syllabus looks interesting at least..the only downside is i have to write a 20 page report for my biotherapeutic class..errggghhh..but then there is only three hws for that class and no exams..

so well, here is to a fabulous last semester! insyaAllah

owh-six?

2006-01-07T20:12:00.000-08:00

2006 is finally here..yup..it took me that long for it to sink in..everyone has written their new year entry and new year resolutions and all that..well for me..it has just sunk in..

maybe its the fact that school is just around the corner..nothing rings in the new year like new books and new pencils and new uniforms. Wait a minute..that would be 10 years ago..now, its more like selling old books to get new books..ahah!

so yes, 2006 is here and it just hit me yesterday(or maybe two days ago) that this year i turn 22! not 20, which marks the end of our 'teenager-dom', nor 21 where you are finally legal to do anything without the consent of your parents(and also suffer the consequences) 22 is like a serious age, where they dont make birthday cards that says 'Happy 22nd Birthday!'. Its like, i'm 22, i can no longer blame raging adolescent hormones and have to take responsibilty of my actions..whoa! big stuff..hehe

do, please forgive the fact that i decided to write my new year entry ranting about my age.

but albeit the fact that i was shocked that i turn 22 this year(i used to think people stop at 21..haha), i do have big plans for 2006 and the future, I want to graduate with flying colors, insyaAllah and go do my masters. Then if Allah permits maybe sometime later in the future I want to get my MBA, and maybe open my own hospital which I can share with my sisters. Ambitious? Yes, very..but i think that is what drives us..me at least..

My hopes for 2006? I guess I'll keep it for myself, but I do hope to be a better muslimah, which insyaAllah will make me a better person.

so there you are, my welcome-06-entry..i am kind of 'tak sabar' to grad..hehe..and well, 22 may not be such a bad age after all ;)

too thin

2006-01-05T12:08:00.000-08:00

i think my dad is getting thinner and thinner..
i saw a hint of it during raya, but i just put it off as the side benefits of fasting, which actually is a good thing with my dad..but this pictures just goes to show that the thinness is there to stay..and its kind of worrying me out..i mean, i'm glad that he is thinner but hopefully it is because of the right reasons..
so yeah..i'm worried for my dad..maybe its time that the tables are turned..where you are worried about your parents instead of the other way around..
in case you're wondering, my dad is the one in the middle, the one with the white shirt..and the one on the left is my little brother..hehe..desperately trying to attract attention with his million dollar smile..not caring that the fact that he is as white as sheet and could easily be mistaken as a chipmunk is enough to draw anyone's attention to him in the photo..
on his right is my sister..no matter how much i think about it, i have somehow trapped her as a 15 year old girl in my mind..and its just funny when she talks about choosing the right universities and stuff like that..and not to forget she is almost as tall as my dad...without heels..that means, taller than me..way taller than me..actually walking beside her makes me feel like a midget..
so yeah, there you go..my father, my sister and my brother..it feels weird parading them here..but oh well...i'm bored

chipmunk

2006-01-04T12:58:00.000-08:00

i had a post already earlier today..but it was sooo, sooo hmm soo not positive..hehe

so well

aha, this is much better eh?
my little chipmunk..:D

eh kasut blakang tu cam lawa..hehe

highlight

2006-01-02T23:33:00.000-08:00

highlight of the day: i found out that i have a new mole on my finger..haha

i feel weird..good weird though..Alhamdulillah

about time

2006-01-01T19:30:00.000-08:00

so well, my last blog was giving me problems..it basically just refuses to publish any more new entries..maybe i just have reached my quota on that blog..hehe..

so what have i been doing? i went to ny and dc..had a couple of souveneirs in form of bruises from all two places..in dc, right in front of jefferson memorial..i guess i was just too tired to walk at that time and i just simply toppled in front of the stairs..hehe..and the second one was right in the middle of times square..haha..talk about souveneirs..

zaty is not here, and it has been eeriely lonely lately..well, maybe it has something to due with the fact that i just watched skeleton key (pandai, pandai)..i'm supposed to study..but this is a waaay less than conducive situation to study

so 2006 is here..it seems blurry from here..everything, life, my studies..what i'm doing after this..so so very blurry..hoho..not the way i planned to ring in the new year..the one good thing i can say about '06 is that i'll graduate this year insyaAllah..

oh well, i better start studying eh?